| Coffee is good... |
[Feb. 2nd, 2009|02:52 pm] |
I am sitting in the coffee shop in the union procrastinating. Great. I need to cut that out completely...but it leads to LJ posts so why not?
I have TONS of homework to do this week. I did not do much this weekend because I was goign to and from IOWA and at the funeral. So I will be playing catch up all week. Crazy that I have so much after the first week...bt that is school for you I suppose.
13 days until Pitchers and Catchers report to spring training. YAY BASEBALL :-)
I feel extra alone at school this semester..but I am trying to do just that because of it... focus on school. It does reinforce my desire to transfer though. Is it bad to plan the next time I can head home so soon?
I talked to Scott for a bit last night, he has been sick.. sad. I sent him virtual soup in an email and he said thanks its probably safer than me making him real soup. He will never let me live down my crappy cooking skills. He said that his mom and grandmother taught him how to cook (before cooking school) because they told him that when he was older women wouldnt know how to cook...I guess they were right.
I really hope that the next two months go by quickly. My birthday weekend is getting more and more fantastic by the day.
1. I turn 21.
2. My sister Keri is coming back to the city from california and I think she might go out and party with us.
3. It is my neice Jorie's first birthday party :-)
4. We are going to watch Maya perform at Second City that night!!
5. Sox game the next day :-)
6. I will most likely be having the time of my life with Alex, Kathy, Scott, Sarah, Keri, and Julio... I dont know what could be a better time.
I just got a text message from my mom.... hilarious. She apparently just got an iphone... even more hilarious. I dont even know what to say.
I should probably get back to work now. Hope all is well. |
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| "Give me something to believe in, a breath from the breathing..." |
[Jan. 30th, 2009|11:07 pm] |
I took the train into Chicago today. On the train I put my Ipod on shuffle and was listening to all of these amazing songs I forgot about and that put me in a great mood. Then I got off the train and went home. I have to take "light photos" for my Photo journalism class...so I just went on a walk to Starbucks and started taking random photos, I got some good ones I am posting on Flickr. Not great.. but they will do for now I have over a week to keep shooting. At Starbucks I got the most amazing cup. The quote on it said:
"The world bursts at the seams with people ready to tell you your not good enough. On occasion, some may be correct. But do not do their work for them. Seek any job; ask anyone out; pursue any goal. Don't take it personally when they say 'no' -- they may not be smart enough to say 'yes'" - Keith Olbermann
One. I love this quote! It is perfect.
Two. I love Keith Olbermann.
Three. I decided to be lame and incorporate my cup in some pictures for kicks example below:
Here is my flickr page: http://www.flickr.com/photos/smither/
So I sent Scott this quote of course in a text...and then he went all deep on me and how its a true quote and how I need to learn from it because he tries to tell me that message all the time, I just dont listen. Now I wanted to tell him I would listen but I'm too distracted looking at his pretty blue eyes, but I didn't think that would be appropriate.
I did however email him the AWESOME letter my advertising professor form last semester gave me about the semester summary and what not. It made me feel very good... other than the fact that I am HORRIBLE at presenting in front of the big shot Advertising guys... it was good to hear. Here is a part of what was said:
( Ad Evaluation )
It was a pretty good thing to read.
So anyways...around 3:30pm my parents and I left Chicago to head to Iowa. As of now I am sitting at a desk in a hotel room at the Hampton Inn. We are going to my great uncle's funeral tomorrow. I did not know the guy very well, but I am pretty much here for family support. It shall be a pretty big gathering tomorrow I hear. I have a hotel room to myself though. Two queen size beds and enough room to break dance in (in is the handicap room). I feel like I am missing something...but probably not. It is getting late so I should get to bed for the long day tomorrow.
Hope all is well. |
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| "You don't know how beautiful you are..." |
[Jan. 29th, 2009|09:03 am] |
Im fairly disappointed in the new U2 single... I hope the album is better. Scott has skills and downloaded it already however he is holding it over my head...saying is better than the single but that I can't listen. Loser. haha. Hopefully he is right... I mean he did go to a Metallica concert the other night o.O haha. My friend came back from Brazil and I had her get him a very special cigar... hes rather excited about this...but I told him he has to wait a bit.
School started this week so the only way I can organize this is to go through my classes I suppose.
History of Baseball in America - AMAZING!! I am such a baseball nerd, so even though all the guy does is lecture I am attentively taking notes and getting more and more excited with every point he makes. Yes... I have been going on and on to my friends about the 5 unique things about baseball...which are obvious but no one really things about it :-) Also... I am the only girl in the class out of 60.. a bit intimidating at first actually.
Media Law - This class is going to kick my ass. End story.
Honors - Subjectivity of Truth - The class sound interesting. The topics and big questions to write papers on are interesting.. how ever our professor said she is going to just tell us to write a paper and its due in a couple weeks...no prompt, no telling us what the paper should be on...nothing. I am concerned.
Photojournalism - I am very excited for this. My favorite teacher is teaching it. Marc, he is SO freaking crazy, but hilarious. He makes me laugh for the entire three hours this class is going on. I had him last semester it was awesome. I think some of the assignments might be challenging for me actually but once I get good results I think it will pay off, I also think I will learn lots in the end :-) VERY excited for this one!
I am also taking a political science class online. THe books seem of interest... I just have not done anything for this one yet... I need to by the fourth so lets see how that goes! :-)
I had coffee with Marly today it was pretty awesome, we talked a lot and did some catching up. We are going to chipotle tonight too so that will be good. Shes not living with my ex roommate next year (surprise).
I saw my lovely ex roommate working her sorrority table in the Union the other day, I didnt know if I should say hi or not. We havent spoken til we moved out... She burned those bridges that is for sure. It make me ill to think about approaching her though..nerves more than anything so I didnt.
I have to go to Iowa this weekend for a funeral. I didnt really know him, he was my mom's uncle...but lots of family will be there kind of like a reunion. I feel like I should go. I will do lots of reading on the way there that is for sure. |
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| Im Back! |
[Jan. 20th, 2009|02:48 pm] |
I always suck at these updates where I have not updated in a while... they always seem like a jumbled mess.
Anyways lets see if I can sort through my mess of a mind.
Houston was relaxing. I managed to escape from Chicago the week that it was about -16 air temp -26 windchill (yikes)! It was about 60's and sunny the week I was in Houston so no complaints there :-)
While I was there I went with my friend as she did some wedding dress shopping, hung around with her Fiance as he was job searching, did some tourist things and read "He's Just Not That Into You".
The book was... well it was all stuff that everyone knows is truth but no one wants to admit it. The one part I did find to be odd though was that it stressed that under no condition should you be the one to not initiate a date with a man. I can see where you should not "chase" a man...but I am not super old fashioned where initiation would be out of the question. Oh well.
It pretty much made me realize once more I should drop any desire to be with Scott ever. Yes I know this, but no I do not listen... because just a hello makes me smile. Its pathetic. However starting yesterday we are back on the "not talking to you, not going to exist for a few days train" so I am riding that out...
On another note Obama is officially president. I watched the Inauguration...it was really cool to watch. I have followed him since his Senate race, it was a powerful moment. I could probably go on for days about this but I am choosing not to. If anyone wants to discuss let me know, I will save my friends list from my Obama love though.
I did think though that it was very distasteful of the crowd to ruin the historic moment by booing and changing "na na na na hey hey hey goodbye" like they were at a basketball game when former President Bush was announced. I do not agree with many of his policies or what went on in the past eight years but it is disrespectful to the ceremony, to the former president, and to the president you are supporting to chant those things at an inaguration.
Sunday was my first day back in the City. I went Ice Skating with Alex (we did not fall!) and then to her house to drink a few beers and watch movies (Kung Fu Panda and the Pineapple Express). It was a good time.
I am going to head back to Milwaukee on Saturday and then school starts on Monday. I am not prepared or wanting to go back, but I have accepted it. It may help that I got all of my applications for transfers sent, so we will see how that goes. I am also already planning multiple trips back to the city and with friends here so I am holding on.
Random Musical stuff:
Hold On Hope - Guided By Voices is the song of my month.
I do think that second to Joshua Tree -- How To Dismantle An Atomic Bomb is my other favorite U2 album. I went back to listen to some U2 since the new CD is coming out. On another note... is it called a CD anymore, I wont be buying the CD... I suppose album... or collection of mp3s? So confusing...
Random -- I have a horrible fascination with Captains/Piolets... Its the stripes it must be.
Hope all is well. I will leave ou all with a couple pictures from my airplane rides!
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| Ah! |
[Jan. 10th, 2009|04:33 am] |
So.. I went to sleep at 1:30.. I was supposed to wake up at 5:30 to get all my stuff together but my friend just called me after she got back from the bar at 3:30. Im wide awake. We talked for a long time...and now i am going to finish laundry and packing I think. I am going to sleep so soundly on the airplane. I am wide awake now but with two hours of sleep... I am going to be dead tomorrow. Hope my friend does not mind.
I realized today that girls are idiots. I am in a bad situation but at least I realize that I am in a bad situation. One girl from work is in a bad situation.. everyone tells her shes ina bad situation and yet every clue that her "boyfriend" is cheating, or ignoring her, or lying to her... she ignores and claims he is a good guy no matter what everyone else says. She is making us girls look like idiots.. its not good.
I am going to be in Houston for the next week or so... my updates and comments will be lacking most likely but I will make up for it when I return :-) |
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| Super busy... |
[Jan. 9th, 2009|10:02 am] |
Today here is my crazyness
12:30 - hair cut
2:45 - nail appointment (k im making myself look pretty today oh well)
4:30 - Dr appointment
6:00 - Movie night with girls from work.
This does not seem that busy but between all of this I have to pack, do laundry, and clean my room because I have to leave tomorrow at 7:00am to go to the airport to catch a 9:30 flight to Houston for a week. Crazyness.
Houston I am just visiting a friend... so it should be rather relaxing. I think I am going to take that time to read "He's just not that into you" and write my college essay for Columbia College.
I need to get some finances in order soon. I spent entirely too much on alcohol the other night... hah. It was mainly because it was my friends birthday so I was helping treating her and what not... It just was probably not the smartest thing to do. I think once I get taxes back from the lovely government this year it is going straight to paying off my credit card, which I will then proceed to rip up and never use again. Those things are evil.
I apparently drunk dialed and left a message on Scott's answering machine at 2:30am after going out with Alex. I have no idea what I said... he says it is pretty amusing... yet he will not inform me of what was said. That is just fantastic. At least when drunk texts are formed I know the mistakes I made... this just worries me.
Hung out with Rocio and Kathy last night and we pretty much sat in Baskin Robbins and talked for two hours straight. It was awesome and felt just like high school again. Much needed.
Well off to start my busy day. Hope everyone is well. |
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| Remember to Breathe... |
[Jan. 6th, 2009|08:26 am] |
So hes texting me regularly again. I have no idea... I hate that I jump back to him like things are normal. I need to grow some balls.
Im driving my mom to the airport today the picking up Kathy :-) I think we are going to go ice skating later with Rocio. It should be a fabulous time. :-)
I need to go to the Apple store today and possibly buy some jeans... (not at the apple store).
Tomorrow we are all going out for Alex's birthday. Im really excited. I have not seen her since before Christmas because she has been on her cruise and in Florida. Re-united at last :-)
Yesterday was all kinds of awesome. I did nothing all day but then Tanner (friend from Milwaukee) called me because he was lost trying to drive his friend to O'hare airport and needed directions. After he dropped his friend off at the airport he said he hadnt been in Chicago since high school and wanted to hang out. We walked over to the shed aquarium so he could see the AMAZING view... and then he asked me this fantastic question:
Tanner: So ... this Chicago Pizza thing... is this a myth?
Emily: What?
Tanner: I hear all about it, everyone says its amazing, but I have never experienced it which makes me believe its a Myth.
Emily: Are you serious? We need to get some NOW!
haha so we went and got some pizza. I also found out where to park down town with meters that are 25 cents for 5 minutes (outrageous) but they NEVER I quote NEVER check the meters therefore it is free. I seriously mean this, not one person paid for the meters and no one had a ticket, apparently this is the case 24/7 365. Good to know :-) Its in a secret place on lower wacker... which is apparently to shady for even the meter cops to check.
I also looked through pictures from when I was a small child. Hilarious. I was such a little tom boy...
Another New Years resolution is in a joking sense.. be more of a girl. In a literal sense to stop wearing so many hoodies and to wear at least a little bit of make up mostly every day. I was wearing make up yesterday and Tanner immediately said, "You look dressed up, where did you just come from?" haha the only thing was I was wearing some mascara and not a hoodie... I dont think I ever do that at school. Its a new year I suppose. |
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| "All is quiet on New Years day..." |
[Jan. 1st, 2009|08:01 pm] |
Rather crappy new years eve... but it happens I suppose.
This year should be good.
Goals... since I am crappy at resolutions..
1. Apply and get into a new school
2. Live life, be active, participate and enjoy moments with friends
3. Lose weight about 30 lbs would be nice (I know... typical :-) )
4. Become less shy, and more confident.
Here is my 2008 in picture review :-)
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| Happy New Year! |
[Dec. 31st, 2008|04:48 pm] |
Its been forever since I posted it feels like. I did think though that I should post before the New Year! A lot has been going on. I was sick for the past few days with the flu.. actually much of my family has been. My grandma ended up in the hospital because of dehydration and what not so that isnt good... but she is starting to do better.
Christmas was a good time with family. A few too many drinks but a lot of fun stories :-) My Niece is 8 months old now! She is soo big Adorable though. I cannot wait until our birthday... I can only imaging how she will be in 3 or 4 months. Shes trying to walk already...forget that crawling thing. She has no clue how.. but if you hold her hands she will try to walk across the room.
For New Years I am going to the good old Navy Pier with my friend Marissa who I have been friends with since kindergarten. Kathy went to the Wisconsin Dells with her 21 yr old friends, so we are going to ring it in with fireworks :-) It should be a good time. Im a sucker for the pier, fireworks, and maybe a beer.
I already started to work on applications for transferring and it will be a good feeling to get those in the mail.
Ever since Alex's party Scott has been texting me a lot. If I go a day without texting him, sure enough around 9pm or so he responds with "You've been quiet today" which leads to us talking for a good couple hours or so. I wish I could see him this New Years but he is going with the rest of shoreline adults to the bar Butches, I was told they could get me in.. but it being New Years and all I figure the cops will be out hardcore and do not want to risk getting in trouble three months before my birthday. I will just wait til next year :-)
I have a pretty busy month ahead of me with lots of friends and visits... this makes me very happy. I am reuniting with everyone from work all over again and it feels great just like summer...except cold... very cold.
Ive been downloading a ton of music! If anyone has any recommendations for something new (even if its old) let me know... im on a music mission these days...
I am compiling many pictures from 2008 and making a bit of a short video... I will probably finish it and post it tomorrow just for fun :-) Looking back at all the pictures and what not... no matter how crappy the first part of the year was... overall it was an AMAZING year and I am glad I hung in there for the first few months in order to really enjoy the last 2/3rds. I wouldnt trade it for anything.
I have yet to make a resolution... I will figure something out I am sure. I want to lose a bit of weight.. however so does the rest of the world these days.
Can't wait until 2009... |
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| Yikes. |
[Dec. 11th, 2008|05:38 am] |
It is just after 5:30am and I just got home from working on my Advertising project for over 12 hours with Abbey... I have to be up in two hours. I am debating whether or not I should sleep. I cannot wait until this presentation is over on Friday I cannot wait.
We texted both of our other group members at 4:30 and told them we were going to Kinkos if either of them wanted to join :-) Yeah... we were bitchy about it.
Did I mention that I cannot wait until this presentation is over? At Monday when I pulled an all nighter I was talking to Scott and Dave... this is just annoying. Im hungry now.. I am thinking frosted flakes. |
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| Media Graphics... please help. |
[Dec. 10th, 2008|01:04 am] |
So for my Media Graphics class... we had to make a "Viral" piece of media for the internet.
I did a take on the "rick roll" ... you will just have to watch it to understand.
Please watch, please pass around to your friends... help me get a good grade. The more views the better.
Thank you all.
Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYKYlByGjWc
Also... feel free to make fun of me :-) |
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| SLEEP!? WHO SLEEPS? NOT I! |
[Dec. 9th, 2008|04:28 am] |
Lets see... I procrastinated like crazy yesterday .. and I am making up for it right now.
I am currently in the process of writing my honors paper which is due at 11am :-) Yay! Go honors. whew hoo. Go Last minute procrastination! I decided I am not sleeping tonight, which... okay sounds like a fine and dandy plan now when it is almost 5am and I am wide awake still with all this extra energy to finish my paper... but come 12.. I will probably be thinking otherwise.
I tapped clips for my viral youtube video today for Media Graphics. I will edit it and finish it tomorrow..well today... you get the idea.. (Tuesday). So that will be done. Which means that after tomorrow I will only have Health and the Media and Advertising to focus on. Which means.. just Advertising til Friday.
I talked to Dave... yes the Dave that broke my heart a couple years ago.. well til 4am.. it is his birthday today. It felt good talking to him again for so long.. but so wrong at the same time. He hurt me.. we are starting over.. yet he never acknowledged that he hurt me or that he was sorry... i dont know what to think.
My friend Alex is having a X-Mas party on the 16th (day after I get home) I am very excited.. it is going to be a lot of people from work who will be there. I am bringing games like Taboo and what not. Scott is coming :-) *Swoons*
Ok... back to work.. I am going to need lots and lots of coffee tomorrow.. lots!! I think I have lost it...
coffee coffee coffee :-D |
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| To Do... |
[Dec. 7th, 2008|12:26 pm] |
I have so much to do and no motivation to do it... I am IN LOVE with the Northern Room album. They jus broke up unfortunately...but are on Itunes. They are <3 A native Milwaukee band.
My list of things to do:
-Pre Order All American Rejects on ITunes
-Email about Airline tickets to Houston in January
-Create Viral YouTube video
-Honors Paper
-Internet Communication Homework**
-Internet Communication Survey
-Internet Communication Test
-Health and the Media Readings
-Health and the Media Paper 1
-Health and the Media Paper 2
-Pick up Advertising packet at Kinkos
-Ad GROUP EVAL
-Deliver Advertising Packet
-Get outfit for fridays presentation**
-Finish the rest of Advetising work
-Clean my room
I starred what I need to finish today... Im doomed. |
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| Im alive? |
[Dec. 6th, 2008|11:03 am] |
Yeah.. this has been a long.... time. I have a jumbled mess of thoughts, and I need to start posting regularly because then they get jumbled and I have much on my mind.
1. Scott apparently is not moving until after the first of the year (and I doubt him moving at all, I keep telling him this...but he says hes moving... so I will believe him.)
2. Kathy and Alex came to visit me on tuesday for the DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE/ JACK'S MANNEQUIN concert. It was pretty fabulous. I love those girls. They make every trip back to Chicago amazing..and they lit up my life when they came to visit me in Milwaukee.
3. I have so much to do school wise these days, which is probably why I have not been around. Advertising is kicking my ass. We present next friday and I am extremely nervous. We need to get all these books of our information printed and its going to cost probably about 60 dollars per group member (if we do it the nice way) I do not think our group is going to be on board for some reason though... I really dont.
4. I signed up for classes next semester. Knowing it is probably going to be my last semester at UWM, I was pretty much with the mindset I am going to take classes I want to take so I am taking Baseball in American History, Photojournalism, and another Photoshop type class, along with Media Law (boo) and my honors seminar.
5. I am going to apply to DePaul University, Loyola University, and Columbia in Chicago over winter break. It will feel good.
6. I feel like I have way more to say... but its all still rather jumbled. |
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| So lie to me and tell me that its gonna be alright... |
[Nov. 16th, 2008|11:02 am] |
I have been busy and sick. Yeah. Not so great. Still not feeling too hot, but this is going to be the busiest week of my semester I do believe.
Advertising is kicking my butt. Two members of our group never get work done so it is up to me and Abbey to finsih everything. The harder we work the lower are grades get and the less our other group members work the higher their grades get and it is frustrating. I feel like we have nothing figured out. It is not a good feeling.. and we have to do our first presentation of the project the tuesday before thanksgiving.
On a lighter note.. the DAVID COOK CD (comes out tuesday) is fantastic. I cannot pick a favorite. but after listening to many live performances I do believe that Lie is my favorite song live. Anyone agree? It is so pretty.
I am going home next weekend.. coming back sunday... going back home tuesday night. :-) I <3 thanksgiving. I am going home next weekend to see Kathy and go with people from work to the Michigan Ave light parade. :-) So pretty! Also... I do think that Kathy and I are going to have lunch with Scott that saturday. He claims he is moving.. yet he has no idea where, when or what his job will be. (I am not going to believe he is moving til he actually has left the city and until then I will keep visiting and saying goodbye) Scott and I have been texting like crazy... I love him for it. But that sucks at the same time.
So... who would have thought that Scrabble could cause so much drama that the cops would be involved? Yeah.. not me. Thursday I went over to Ryans house. He is pretty crazy. This is the guy that professed his love to me..yeah. I think he is unstable. I was playing scrabble with Ryan, his current woman barbara, and his roommate Tanner. Ryan started winning because he got a triple word score but then I used the 8 letter word "Arrested" which means I used all 7 of my letters and ended up getting 72 points in one move. Ryan got pissed off and tossed his letters in the box and said "F' this I am done!" Tanner said "Dude I am not even mad, that was awesome!". I made the mistake of pissing Ryan off more by saying dude calm down and play the game... the only person I know that stops playing when they arent winning anymore is the 4 yr old little girl I babysit for and then I put my hand on his shoulder... he got pissed off and slapped me and walked out of the house. Barbara followed. Tanner and I just sat there scared and looked at each other. At that moment Scott texted me and asked what was up. I told him he did not want to know but he asked again anyways. I told him. He called me and was pissed saying I need to call the cops right now. Tanner over heard him and agreed. I told them both I was not going to. Scott told me that he needs to learn a lesson to not treat people like crap and that that is un called for. He told me that I am always saying how I never stand up for myself... but this is my chance. Then tanner chimed in and said we should call because he has been angry like this for weeks and pushed their other roommate Megan against the wall the other day when she set him off. Tanner ended up calling. When the cops came we answered questions... and they were just going to give him a citation however when they were talking to him he got pissed off and started swearing. They told him they were just going to give him a citation but it seemed like he needed to calm down so they were going to take him to spend the night. He kind of screwed himself over... It was a stressful night. Yesterday however, he texted me out of the blue like nothing happened and asked if I wanted to come over and watch a movie. My reply? "Are you F***ing Kidding me?".
Lets see... lastly I read this disturbing article this morning so I thought I would post it. Sorry ahead of time for the rant...
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/obama_racial;_ylt=ArSkSXgBVMvEF8OEdqCC52rZn414
Along with this, I just want to state I am very aware that many McCain supporters supported McCain for his values and for his views as an elected candidate. I know that is a much smaller majority that is expressing these hateful racial feelings and crimes.
It just is hard to read for me. Especially the 7 year olds that are being taught these things. It just means that another generation is being taught to hate... is being raised to hate. We cant resolve these issues when people keep teaching their children these hateful values. I grew up rather sheltered until I was 18. Sheltered...In a way that I went to both elementary school and high school in a very diverse atmosphere. In highschool especially, I as a white girl, was the minority. We had many African Americans, Asians, Hispanics, and even kids of Middle Eastern decent. Our Principal was openly gay. We had one of the largest gay-straight aliances in the city. No one gave each other hell over sexual preference or race. People at least respected each other. And were friends based on common interest not because of segregation. I grew up thinking this was normal. I grew up believing that none of these things mattered or determined who a person was in life. I left for college and went to Milwaukee. All my friends were white, many would say racial slurs as jokes and it was a big reality check. The union and even classes were segregated and it still makes me feel un easy. Its the world though and that scares me. I just wish that my high school was reality sometimes. Because there is no reason to hate. |
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| "Cause you love, and you bleed, and you stole my soul to set me free..." |
[Nov. 5th, 2008|06:47 pm] |
I have not written in a very long time. I have been swamped with my advertising group project for the semester.
Lets see... Halloween weekend I went home :-) Friday I was feeling soo sick that I just stayed home all night and slept. Saturday I went with Kathy to the pier to drop off cookies for Nicole's birthday and hang out some. We went on a boat ride but did NOT see Scott because he got off work at 4 that day. I was sad... however he texted us later on that night saying he was working Sunday morning. I literally jumped when I heard this. :-) We went on Sunday morning to go on his boat ride and we hung out a bit and I said goodbye and gave him the biggest hug ever. He kissed my forehead and said that I will see him again. It felt really good. Kathy then pulled him aside and they talked for a bit... and then Kathy asked me when in November I had free time in Milwaukee. I told her the two middle weekends. She said she was coming to visit and bringing a surprise. Not sure what that will be. (I hope it is Scotty seeing as he won't be moving til the very end of November... but I doubt that. A girl can dream though)
Random: Declaration by David Cook ... even though I only have the live version... is my new favorite song. Float by Flogging Molly is also pretty neat as well. :-) Yeah I said neat.
Monday I went to a hookah bar and relaxed with friends for a couple hours... it made me want to go to sleep very quickly. I love how relaxing that stuff is.
Tuesday -- I watched election results. I wish I had been in Chicago at the Obama Rally but I could not skip advertising... not these days we are so far behind. I understand peoples mixed feelings about the outcome but in the words of the lovely Scott "Scott is glad the election is over so people can get over themselves and just be Americans again...". We need to back this guy whether we LOVE or HATE him because thats the only way we are going to accomplish anything. We are American, he is going to be our President... lets stop this trend of hating who is in power and supporting. We can crticize yes, but give him a chance.
SO I am going to be in a wedding next fall. This is all fine and dandy except the best man in this wedding is this man named Dave who about.. 2 years ago screwed me over big time. Not a very good history and I have not talked to him sense. I told my friend I would let it go and be mature and not start any problems. I wont talk to him unless it is wedding relate. Anyways, he is dating this woman who he claims he was going to marry they have been getting along so well. Or have they? I found out today he broke up with her... So I need to muster up the strength to ignore him now even if he tries to make the first move. Not be upset over being in the same space.. and let him go. Ugh. I talked to Scotty about this, he joked that he could be my date. <3 I know he was joking but still sweet.
I probably have so much more to write but I have lots of work to do still in the next hour before I go meet my Advertising group. Hope everyone is well. |
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| I feel like I have so much to write... |
[Oct. 28th, 2008|08:35 am] |
yet none of it is coming to mind.
One thing... CELL PHONES SUCK! My phone died Saturday so I just said screw it, if people need me they can leave a message. Then I charged it and Didnt check it for messages Sunday morning before I showered... when I got out of the shower I had a panicked message from 1. My parents (thinking I was dead or something) and 2. Kathy who was convinced by my parents that I was dead or something. Apparently they had been calling me all day Saturday and then Sunday when I was in the shower. Lovely huh? I had to call and convince them I was stll living. I blame cell phones because then people expect you to answer always no matter where you are. More paranoia. Plus i have been a bit down which is probably why they called to check in on me in the first place. However they usually NEVER call.. so that is just great huh?
However.. because my phone died... I did not text message Scott for a good two days straight. I ALWAYS text him first he never does. However later Sunday afternoon I got a text from him. "Hello. What's up?" :-) I was very happy. Simple but its the fact that he texted me after not hearing from me for a while. He acts like he does not care. But... then why would he feel the need to text? To add to Sonadora's lovely predicament he is a "Nice guy disguised as a jerk" how can you NOT fall for that?
I AM GOING HOME THIS WEEKEND :-) For halloween... possibly a boat ride. I am guessing some drinks.
Barack Obama is having a big election night party on the 4th in Grant Park for all to go to. I REALLY want to go however that would mean me going home friday... coming back to milwaukee sunday... and going back to Chicago Tuesday night. Not that I have any protests to that... it just might screw me over school wise. We will see. |
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| "I wanna trip inside your head, spend a day there... to hear the things you havent said... |
[Oct. 23rd, 2008|10:14 am] |
...and see what you might see. I wanna hear you when you call, do you feel anything at all? I wanna see your thoughts take shape and walk right out."
So I have not fallen off the face of the earth... I have just been really busy. Tried to catch up on commenting and what not just now. I will do more a bit later on today.
Last weekend I ended up going home again when I was not supposed to. Oops. But I had a really good time and it made me feel amazing as always. Saturday was sweetest day... so I went over to my best friend Kathy's house and she made me steak for dinner! How awesome is that? Then we made Halloween sugar cookies and watched Bee Movie. Sunday we ended up going to Navy Pier for a boat ride and since Alex was bartending on Scott's boat we brought them both cookies and I colored the bags like a three year old. I drew a tombstone on Scott's and a pumpkin on Alex's. We created "naked people" cookies for Scott because Kathy and I are immature and have to create at least two naked people sugar cookies when we make them. It was pretty funny because the boobs fell off the woman so we had to ice them back on but when we brought the cookies to Scott her arm fell off too so he made jokes about her being a one armed prostitute... then went on to eat her leg... and said that she was right sided... then went on to eat her left boob and said she was completely right sided... then continued to eat her piece by piece. It was morbid but really hilarious. He was in his captain sweater because it was pretty cold and looked very spiffy and professional :-) I got a very big hug as well for the cookies and because I brought him left over Chinese food. He did not go out with us afterwards but it was a Sunday and he had diving the next day. Still nice to see him. We went on his sunset tour and I took a pretty sweet picture, it was really beautiful that night.
Chicago is so beautiful :-) There were people from Utah that were saying how it was weird how pretty it was because they have beautiful mountains but we just have buildings. I made a smart remark about how we have mountains too. Beautiful mountains... architectural mountains. Which is a weird way... is true. The skyline is gorgeous.
I came home then on Monday and immediately felt a feeling of dread and unhappiness. Milwaukee is taking me by hold and consuming me like a black cloud these days. Its just making me unhappy. Probably explains why I go home so often this year. Its just not right for me... and I feel like I am not learning anything at school which makes me feel like being here is pointless. I have had many moments of not even wanting to get out of bed this week... or moments at night where I just want to get away so I walk with my headphones on and sit by the lake for an hour and think. The lake here is what calms me. I think it reminds me of home. Same lake... just 90 minutes north. With all of this in mind I think I am going to transfer to Columbia College in Chicago for my last year next year. I told my mother and she thought it was a good idea. Not just because I am home sick though.. but because I feel it will be better for my major. Here we only take 2 advertising related classes and can graduate as an Advertising major. At Columbia... you take 10 classes. A years worth. More portfolio building, more preparation. I think its a better choice. My sister found out and sent me this in an email:
"How are your classes going? I hear that you might be going to Columbia next year which would be very cool since you would be closer. :-) And then we could go to a bar together because you'll be 21!!!
At the end of the day, you need to do whatever you have to in order to be happy, and I promote that very much."
It made me feel better about my decision. I mean... this will make me happier. I have a strong feeling about that. I discussed this in length with Kathy as well and a few people from work. Scott sat down with me while he was driving and let me talk to him alone in the pilot house. He told me that I need to do what is best for me and if that means moving that's what I need to do. He went into some of his past life experience and how he moved away and actually ended up back in Chicago as well. He said this city draws you in... and you can never shake it. Once it is home, there is no turning back.
Advertising is insane.. and we are so far behind but hopefully catching up. We met with our ad agency yesterday and got a lot of tips but now we have tons to do even more to do. Hopefully we will get a good hold on everything. It is just kicking my ass right now. We stayed up til 2 am working on the project last night.. and still are not even close to being close to done.
Im getting sick I think too... and on top of it over slept for class this morning. Which I am oddly okay with at the moment. Probably because I have had a stressful week and need the rest.
Crap went down with Ryan the other day ... that I really don't feel like going into right now but at 2 am he pissed me off to the point where I pushed him and walked out of him house and walked to the lake in the freezing cold to sit on a bench for an hour before I headed home. It was not pleasant.
Anyways..I should get back to my work. Hope everyone is doing well. |
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stolen from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sarah33 |
[Oct. 15th, 2008|11:30 pm] |
Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:
1. I don't love you.
2. Your the best friend one could ask for.
3. I am glad you are feeling better these days.
4. Thanks for picking up your phone today, sometimes just hearing your voice and encouragement keeps my spirits up.
5. I wish I could hug you right now.
6. We won't fail.
7. You make me want to go home and party all the time.
8. Things will get better with time. Your strong.
9. Im sorry.
10. I love you
Nine Things About Myself:
1. I love boat rides.
2. My favorite author is Chuck Palahniuk
3. I used to be a film major.
4. Now I am an advertising major.
5. I am in love with the Chicago White Sox.
6. I do not think I could ever live long term in a place other than Chicago.
7. I fake my happiness once in a while.
8. I suck at cooking.
9. I love water more than any other beverage.
Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
1. Cook for me.
2. White sox fan.
3. Be able to joke around and laugh at me and yourself
4. Look me in the eyes
5. Flirt
6. Be confident
7. Hug me often
8. Be able to talk about everything whether I agree or not... just good conversation.
Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
1. Scott
2. Kathy
3. Baseball
4. School
5. Future
6. Weight
7. Chicago
Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
1. Text message
2. set my alarm
3. take out contacts
4. brush teeth
5. watch gilmore girls :-)
6. fix to do list
Five People Who Mean a Lot:
1. parents.
2. sisters
3. Jorie (niece)
4. Kathy
5. Scott
Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now:
1. Green sweater
2. Jeans
3. Chucks
4. Peace sign necklace.
Three Songs I Listen to a Lot: [at the moment]
1. Hammers and Strings - Jack's Mannequin
2. Gotta be somebody - Nickleback
3. Light On - David Cook
Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
1. Live a happy life
2. Travel the world
One Confession:
1. I want to change majors. |
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| "But I know I'm not crazy... I just lost my will" |
[Oct. 15th, 2008|12:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | Hammers and Strings - Jack's Mannequin | ] |
Hammers and Strings by Jack's Mannequin is my new favorite song right now.
Beautiful.
Advertising is driving me insane. Our group has hit a wall. We have fallen behind and its really discouraging. It's making me think that maybe I am not so sure about what I want to do in life. What I am going to be successful with. What will make me happy. I don't like this real adult thing. I feel like I am just setting myself up for failure.
I did on the other hand set up the ryan guy who went on a freak out because of what Scott wrote to him in a text... with some girl. The girl spent the night last night, not sure what they did but he seems content. So if he needs someone to bounce towards to get him away from me.. I more than encourage it.
Ive been talking to Scott a lot. And the more and more I talk. The sweeter he gets. The more he cares. The more he asks me questions and also the more I realize that I am just setting myself up for more disapointment because nothing is going to happen there. I would love for him to be able to come back to shoreline next summer. Just for one more summer. Than I can see... I can see what would happen. I do not wan't him to move. Even if nothing more happens than what already has.. I have really realized that he is a genuine person and friend when you give him a chance to open up a bit. I love that man. And I hate myself for saying that.
This is kind of a dreary post... so Im sorry. It kind of reflects the rain today. I am just sitting in the coffee shop listening to hammers and strings on repeat.. watching the rain fall as I wait for my ad group.
I did buy an obama cookie. They are using them for "voting" at this coffee shop. McCain Obama cookies to see who buys what. Its a cool idea.
I do need to do laundry today.. and get grocerys.. and clean my room. Once my room is clean it makes me feel better when I get in a funk it all comes apart becomes a mess and I need to fix that before I can fix myself.
I am going to try to get healthy food at the grocery store. Veggies, Fruits. Not trash. I need to lose weight. I think that will also help my mood.
Now for the lyrics of the pretty pretty song.
( Hammers and Strings (A Lullaby) ) |
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